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The Two Towers

by Shadowbanned

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1.
If I forget your face, love I’ll remember the feeling still Leaning back against your chest And the sun setting over Nashville Then we reach the part When it’s time to go And I ask you please to stay But you leave anyway I never knew That memories Could feel as painful As the day they’re made When you forget my name, love Please remember your hand in mine Leading you down to the river A moment with no care for time Then the world intrudes And my fickle thoughts Find their way into my heart That’s when the doubtin’ starts I never thought That me and you Could feel so close But end so far apart When the world intrudes And my fickle thoughts Find their way into my heart That’s when the doubtin’ starts I never knew That memories Could feel as painful As the day they’re made And I’ve always been too proud I know I pushed Your love away My worst mistake I’m livin’ to regret it I can’t explain Why I let go But today I know That I can’t forget you now When I forget to forget, love It always takes me by surprise In that moment I’m back in your arms, love I catch my breath and I close my eyes Then we reach the part When you pack your things And I’m beggin’ you to stay But I found the words too late I never knew That memories Could feel as painful As the day they’re made And my thoughts go round and round I know I pushed Your love away My worst mistake I’m livin’ to regret it I can’t explain Why I let go But today I know I can’t forget you now… I know I can’t forget you now… Today I know I can’t forget you now
2.
You should have been home sooner Still I ignored the rumors Is that a bird or a plane in the sky? My searchlight in the night signalin’ Your cheatin’ sense was tinglin’ Working late fighting crime? Girl you lied I’ll never forget That uncanny night we first met X-ray vision at first sight You saw straight through me And then you sank each claw into me Turns out you're my kryptonite And I can’t get away I could escape but always stay No I can’t get away ‘Cause you arrive and save the day Yeah I can’t get away I should break free but I’m a coward No I can’t get away Yeah that’s your superpower I can’t get away No I can’t get away Yeah that’s your superpower I can’t get away Yeah I can’t get away Yeah that’s your superpower Your lies are sociopathic They’re autobiographic Because that’s your superpower Your gift increases You’re into psychokinesis How can I put up a fight? Hero or villain? Well either way I’m willin’ Because you’re my kryptonite No I can’t get away I could escape but always stay And I can’t get away ‘Cause you arrive and save the day Yeah I can’t get away I should break free but I’m a coward No I can’t get away Yeah that’s your superpower I can’t get away No I can’t get away Yeah that’s your superpower I can’t get away Yeah I can’t get away Yeah that’s your superpower You’re uncanny Mercenary Legendary You seduced me With your secret Identity You supervillain But you’re a heroine to millions And baby you’re my kryptonite Yeah I can’t get away I should break free but I’m a coward No I can’t get away Yeah that’s your superpower I can’t get away No I can’t get away Yeah that’s your superpower I can’t get away Yeah I can’t get away Yeah that’s your superpower I can’t get away No I can’t get away Yeah that’s your superpower I can’t get away Yeah I can’t get away Yeah that’s your superpower
3.
I get a funny kind of feeling ‘Round the mirror I’ll stare looking for meaning ‘Til I cry When I’m walking through the city No one sees me They don’t know that there’s A princess passing by They never notice someone’s standing Where I’m standing So they run into me Staring at their phones Then they vaguely frown And look straight through me Don’t realize my face Is one they’ve always unknown… In fairytales there’s always Someone strong and brave And there’s always someone beautiful They think they need to save And fairytales only exist in books From olden days I wish upon a star to see A world where the hero could be A fairytale princess who looks like me… A fairytale princess who looks like me Sometimes weeks go by I feel I’m just a monster I can’t even bring myself To go outside There are moments When at best I’m an imposter There are days I only Have the strength to hide But if I just give in I’m giving Into nothing A nothing with the power To shape lives So I’m standing up And walking out that front door I’m dressing up tonight in All my own designs In fairytales there’s always Someone strong and brave And there’s always someone beautiful They think they need to save If fairytales on movie screens are myths That make us slaves Then imagine what the world could be If only the world could see A fairytale princess who looks like me A fairytale princess who looks like me… Open your eyes and really see me Free your heart and start believing In me… Just as you see In a princess like me… In fairytales there’s always Someone strong and brave And there’s always someone beautiful They think they need to save If fairytales only exist in songs Sung on a stage Just imagine what our world could be Beyond the fairytale you see A fairytale princess who looks like me… You might believe in you again If you start believing in A fairytale princess who looks like me… A fairytale princess who looks like me
4.
The kids without T-shirts running A sprinkler’s spray And you took a turn too laughing On my last day The shape of your hand in my sunburn While you got tan I told you next year I’d return And we made plans Whispered for hours We talked and played Our sweet and sour Was on this day Our sweet and sour The haziest hum of summer Was on our skin I won’t ever feel another Summer like then Whispered for hours We talked and played Our sweet and sour Was on this day Afternoon showers I should’ve stayed Our closest hour Was on this day Our closest hour Was on this day I never felt that way About anything Or anyone On my last day Whispered for hours We talked and played Our sweet and sour Was on this day Afternoon showers I should’ve stayed Our closest hour Was on this day Our closest hour Was on this day Was on this day Was on this day
5.
Summer Song 04:21
Days just passed slower in those days And lawnmowers buzzed away While we hid inside and played The arcade Your birthday You weren’t who I thought I knew We were children but we grew Divorced father’s sports car flew Our debut Me and you Any fool can see That days just turn into weeks and years Every day could be The last we’ll have left to speak and I fear Many lives are spent holding your breath Til it leaks Into air Into time Hometown’s prison when you’re young We drew smoke into our lungs You convinced yourself to run Towards the one Setting sun Any fool can see That days just turn into weeks and years Any day could be The last we’ll have left to speak and I fear Many lives are spent holding your breath Til it leaks Into air Into… …time Into weeks and years… Left to speak and I fear… Til it leaks Into air Can we speak Once we’re there? Into time
6.
I've been looking so long at these pictures of you That I almost believe that they're real I've been living so long with my pictures of you That I almost believe that the pictures are all I can feel Remembering you standing quiet in the rain As I ran to your heart to be near And we kissed as the sky fell in, holding you close How I always held close in your fear Remembering you running soft through the night You were bigger and brighter and wider than snow You screamed at the make-believe, screamed at the sky And you finally found all your courage to let it all go Remembering you, fallen into my arms Crying for the death of your heart You were stone white, so delicate Lost in the cold You were always so lost in the dark Remembering you how you used to be Slow drowned, you were angels So much more than everything Hold for the last time then slip away quietly Open my eyes, but I never see anything If only I'd thought of the right words I could have held on to your heart If only I'd thought of the right words I wouldn't be breaking apart all my pictures of you Looking so long at these pictures of you But I never hold on to your heart Looking so long for the words to be true But always just breaking apart My pictures of you There was nothing in the world that I ever wanted more Than to feel you deep in my heart There was nothing in the world that I ever wanted more Than to never feel the breaking apart My pictures of you
7.
Well, I drove back to my hometown Got caught by the one red light I saw the glow from the high school Football field in the twilight Then I drove on past the liquor store And on past the Dairy Queen Well there wasn’t much in my Hometown I hadn’t seen Later, I’m packing up my mama’s house I found my yearbooks on the shelf And I gotta say I had some trouble Tryin’ to recognize myself Between pictures and the mirror And what we try hard to ignore Well, I found myself with My coat on at the door Yeah, I found myself With my coat on at the door Well, I saw the floodlights on From way cross town And I had to get some fresh air So I thought that I’d drive down It should be easier to come back But that’s not the way this feels Cuz when you come back Looking for inspiration You find an empty field I’ve learned that nothin’s as easy As it seemed And coach I promise that I’ll Shut the lights off Just before I leave This empty field of dreams I don’t wanna make too big a deal now about my glory days It’s just a form of charity If everybody plays So you work hard, ready to step in If you’re needed by the team Well you know I was only Ever second string Yeah you know I was Only ever second string So when I saw the floodlights on From way cross town Well I had to get some fresh air So I thought that I’d drive down It should be easier to come back But that’s not the way this feels Cuz when you come back Looking for inspiration You find an empty field I found that nothin’s as easy As it seemed And coach I promise that I’ll Shut the lights off Just before I leave This empty field of dreams Where bright but it empty Cuz the team have all gone home To their mamas and their stepdads And their sisters on their phones Well I’ve learned that nothin’s as easy As it seemed And coach I promise that I’ll Shut the lights off Just before I leave Yeah I learned that nothin’s as easy As it seemed And coach I promise that I’ll Shut the lights off Just before I leave This empty field of dreams This empty field of dreams My empty field of dreams
8.
I drive on past The reservoir My brother loaned me His beat up car I’m feelin’ free No one around Drivin’ away From my hometown From my hometown From my hometown Nobody here Is judgin’ me A roadside bar Big screen TV Same football game The same touchdown Two counties over From my hometown From my hometown From my hometown I stay because there’s voices in my head They keep repeating every stupid thing I wish I’d never said And though I know I’ll get by somehow Livin’ day by day It’s too late now to stumble on The perfect words to say Play “Born To Run” Romantic song A couple whiskeys My problem’s gone Over the jukebox Can’t hear the sound Of a broken promise In my hometown In my hometown In my hometown I stay because there’s voices in my head They keep repeating every stupid thing I wish I’d never said And though I know I’ll get by somehow Livin’ day by day It’s too late now to stumble on The perfect words to say Now one day soon I’ll leave for good For New York CIty Or Hollywood They’re in my rear view Just turned around I’m drivin’ back in To my hometown I stay because there’s voices in my head They keep repeating every stupid thing I wish I’d never said And though I know I’ll get by somehow Livin’ day by day It’s too late now to stumble on The perfect words to say I stay because there’s voices in my head They keep repeating every stupid thing I wish I’d never said Drivin’ away is just a slower Way for me to drown It’s too late now for me to drive away From my hometown
9.
Rain keeps fallin’, rain keeps fallin’ Pain gets washed away No one’s talkin’, just keep walkin’ I don’t care what they say Never could get used to hearin’ The sound of Sunday coupons tearin’ You never miss the boredom til you leave The eyes you got they cut right through me Cause you’re the only one who knew me I never could admit to what I need Caught the train up to Penn Station Guess I just got tired of waitin’ At a certain point you stand yourself up and go Called you up at work to say Give me directions on the subway I’ll be there at your place when you get home Sit here sweatin’, the city’s melting The heat won’t go away Garbage cookin’, your neighbor’s lookin’ She don’t care what I say Found some work that starts at noon I’ll pay my share of the rent soon And I’ll buy some milk and coffee and some soap Shooting pool until two thirty I know a little more won’t hurt me At least the place is right across the road The wind is blowin’, you said you’re goin’ I won’t stand in your way A different season, some other reason I don’t care what you say No I, I, I, I don’t care No I, I, I, I don’t care Cause it doesn’t matter anyway And I don’t care what you say Now they say it’s safer in this city Than it’s been since the 1950’s I never changed the locks on the front door There’s something here I guess I’m needing And plus, you can’t go back to Eden They don’t let U-hauls in there anymore Thought you’d like knowin’ it’s finally snowin’ I’ll send a text your way You won’t read it, you don’t need it You don’t care what I say No you, you, you, you don’t care Yeah you, you, you, you don’t care But it doesn’t matter anyway That you don’t care what I say Cause it doesn’t matter anyway And you don’t care what I say Rain keeps fallin’, rain keeps fallin’ Pain gets washed away No one’s talkin’, just keep walkin’ I don’t care what they say I don’t care what they say… Yeah, I don’t care what they say... No, I don’t care what they say
10.
There’s kids out here smokin’ Guess they can’t smoke indoors I should be inside typin’ But I just can’t anymore It’s mid-December And I’m still crashed on your floor Empty in general It’s simply worse than before Blame it on the fool and the setting sun Blame it on the fool who fooled everyone Blame it on the rules that you live by Just to get you through another day And don’t forget me Yeah don’t forget me You see I’m tryin’ to move on But the timing’s not right Got a thing for this guy He tends bar at Fair Fight I’ve kept at a distance But we did speak last night He’s movin’ to LA After his shift Friday night Blame it on the fool and the setting sun Blame it on the fool who fooled everyone Blame it on the rules that you live by Just to get you through another day And don’t forget me Yeah don’t forget me You knew it was stupid But I might be the one Now we’re sitting ‘round waitin’ For me to move on Blame it on the fool and the setting sun Blame it on the fool who fooled everyone Blame it on the rules that you live by Just to get you through another day And don’t forget me Yeah don’t forget me Blame it on the fool and the setting sun Blame it on the fool who fooled everyone Blame it on the rules that you live by Just to get you through another day And don’t forget me Yeah don’t forget me
11.
There’s an apartment by the sea Washer, dryer, and a view of dreams You take the long walk into town For coffee and you bring back half a pound The road is dirt and sand and oyster shell Smell of sulfur comin’ from the well You take the long walk back from town But where are you livin’ now? Where are you livin’ now? Sometimes I wish they’d un-invent Highways and then airplanes But there’d still be time and time just Takes you farther away than anything You’ll miss it if you don’t know the turn Off I-40 between Knoxville and Gatlinburg 20 mile drive, that’s if you know the route Teachin’ part time as a substitute Civics at the comprehensive high Your car needs work and your book needs time Great American novel in a one mall town But where are you livin’ now? Where are you livin’ now? Sometimes I wish they’d un-invent Highways and then airplanes But there’d still be time and time just Takes you farther away than anything Apartment listings in the Sunday Times Saturday morning on the Lower East Side And Monday you’re back to work in Midtown But where are you livin’ now? Where are you livin’ now? Sometimes I wish they’d un-invent Highways and then airplanes But there’d still be time and time just Takes you farther away than anything Sometimes I wish they’d un-invent Highways and then airplanes But there’d still be time and time just Takes you farther away than anything
12.
Without a map or guidebook Forgot how my face should look For now I’ll just assume the worst A friend could be a mirror Someday when friends are nearer I’ll have to call someplace home first I ran away from trouble Before the landslide crumbled I wasn’t around to help clear the debris On the news I saw the story Interviews with eyes that know me I’m always trapped when I think I’m free If it’s not broken, break it If it’s not taken, take it If it’s not stolen, steal it Just push until you feel it I stay up brewing coffee I think the smell reminds me That if you stay put you will die So give names to your mood swings They’ve become the only things That let you know that you’re alive If it’s not broken, break it If it’s not taken, take it If it’s not stolen, steal it Just push until you feel it If it’s not broken, break it If it’s not taken, take it If it’s not stolen, steal it Just push until you feel it I found the city I deserved So many millions getting served We said we’d keep in touch by phone But every caller is a world alone If it’s not broken, break it If it’s not taken, take it If it’s not stolen, steal it Just push until you feel it If it’s not broken, break it If it’s not taken, take it If it’s not stolen, steal it Just push until you feel it... Just push until you feel it Just push until you feel it
13.
Across the evening sky, all the birds are leaving But how can they know it's time for them to go? Before the winter fire, I will still be dreaming I have no thought of time For who knows where the time goes? Who knows where the time goes? Sad, deserted shore, your fickle friends are leaving Ah, but then you know it's time for them to go But I will still be here, I have no thought of leaving I do not count the time For who knows where the time goes? Who knows where the time goes? And I am not alone while my love is near me I know it will be so until it's time to go So come the storms of winter and then the birds in spring again I have no fear of time For who knows how my love grows? And who knows where the time goes?

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Beyond the 9/11 & Tolkien references, the "Two Towers" are Time & Place... or Childhood & Adulthood... or New York City & Hollywood... or Hometown & Anywhere Else... You get the picture...

The album is about life from the time you start to feel yourself as an individual (maybe that’s 11-13 years old for the average kid?) 'til you feel you have really truly become an adult (maybe for my “Generation X” that’s when we have kids, cuz we didn’t have wars - thankfully! - to “force” us into adulthood as much as our parents & grandparents did?!?) - so it’s about that liminal period between childhood and adulthood, which I/we lived partly, unknowingly, under the shadow of pre-9/11… a wonderful, naive time in retrospect l reckon…

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released November 30, 2022

Written, Arranged, Performed, & Produced by Shadowbanned
Mixed & Mastered by Tonie Nyguen
Album Cover Photograph by Nathan Benn | Geo Image Collection | Art Resource NY (used under license)
Album Cover designed by Chapeldesigns

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Shadowbanned creates timeless, genre-restless pop songs.

Shadowbanned is producer/songwriter Chris Sizemore, joined by an ever-evolving cast of soulful vocalists and musicians from all across the world. Sizemore, a native of Nashville USA and now expat near Manchester UK, was producer/multi-instrumentalist in Brooklyn dream-pop group Folksongs For The Afterlife.
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